Slammed Shut

So many times in my life I’ve gripped on to things so tightly, desperate to hold on. Whether it was friendships, relationships, a business venture or just things, I held on to some of them for far too long. The door would be shutting and God was saying “no” but I fought with all my might to keep it open or to make it happen. 

Have you ever been there? I can think of so many times being in pain over what I thought I “needed” when God was simply saying “trust me and let it be.” If I had only listened and obeyed, I would have avoided so many tears. I remember dating someone and having so much anxiety about it, that I could hardly eat and lost 10 pounds just two months into the relationship. God was telling me no but I was saying yes and a month later I found out he wasn’t being loyal. I wanted it so bad that I ignored the Holy Spirits guidance and ended up being hurt badly. Sometimes we allow our flesh to make the decisions to fulfill our needs but it never ends good. Matthew 26:41 says that we must let the spirit lead. It states, “Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.” 
We are all tempted to let our flesh lead everyday! But praying about all things and turning to God to lead the way will be your strength. I for one have always had a bad “picker.” I wasn’t very good at picking good men. It was then that I realized that I couldn’t let myself choose anymore and I had to let God choose for me. And as I’ve been on this dating journey the last 6 months, I have felt the spirits guidance the whole way. I used to get into a relationship as soon as possible to satisfy my flesh. But now by letting the Holy Spirit lead, the difference is so clear to me between what is God’s will and what is not.

I look back now and I am so thankful for closed doors. They were God’s protection over my life! Had he let those doors stay open any longer, I may not be sitting here to write this blog. Let God lead. Let him close doors. Stop holding on so tight! You don’t have to hold on tight or chase what God has meant for you. The best part is, when you give up control to God, you get to sit back, relax and enjoy the ride! 
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  1. Hi Jill… such a beautiful reflection here that you've written. My name is Matthew…I sent you a friend request on fb because we have a lot of mutual friends. I'm wondering how we don't now each other! Haha! I live in Rosedale, do you live here as well? I am a dedicated man of God, a practicing Catholic. Nice to meet you, perhaps we could have a cup of coffee sometime.

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